I read a story last night online from a man, who at 13, started having sexual relations with his 14 year old sister. He described how they had intercourse multiple times a week for a good 13 years. Now she is engaged, and he is having to cope with the jealousy, and “getting over” a lost lover. He answered many questions about the dynamics of their relationship, which in how he described, sounded like a very typical romantic relationship. They experienced jealousy when the other dated, they experienced the silent treatment after fights; and this was also only intensified by the fact they were siblings (who go through the emotional ups and downs naturally).
I found myself thinking how absolutely bizarre this was. I have 2 sisters and 1 brother, we are all very close in age, and grew up extremely good friends. I could and have never imagined my brother in a romantic way. I acknowledge the fact he is attractive, talented, and smart, but for some reason it is such a far fetched thought for me, I could not even imagine it is possible for other humans to feel romantically attracted to a sibling. So I instantly thought there must be something “wrong” with this man.
This whole thing is very, weird. “Wrong”. Wrong wrong wrong. I began to read the comments others left and felt more uncomfortable to find that many others had shared the same experience as him. I thought, wow there is seriously something very wrong with so many people! Wow!
But then, my monkey mind quieted for a second, and I heard that familiar voice that I have practiced to hear for some time- it usually repeats the same thing over and over; and lately it has been saying “There is no such thing as right or wrong. There is no such thing as good or bad. There is no such thing as right or wrong. There is no such thing as good or bad”.
So after I remember this Truth. I am left to ponder the deeper questions:
What is the karma of these lovers, that they chose to incarnate as siblings in this life?
What did they decide they wanted to learn/heal?
Who instilled in me so deeply that incestuous relations are “bad?”
Is there any Truth to the feeling relatives should not mate? Or am I deeply conditioned from the fearful men who wrote our biblical laws?
in my session with my spirit guides last week they told me that I censor my thoughts and words (to my partner) in order to receive his perceived approval. Well, right now i would like to shout a big “FUCK YOU”. Would that be considered expressing myself, or being a bitch? hmmmm…… tough one…
Cooking up a storm always makes winter so much more enjoyable…
* pumpkin pudding made from scratch
* blueberry roibos with raw milk and agave
* coconut flour pancakes with raw milk and walnuts
* squash, zucchini,carrot, onion and flax veggie burgers. all from the veggies in our garden.
* beet, cabbage, and carrot (from our garden) saur kraut.
* raw chocolate macaroons
* matt’s organic home brew (beer) which now is on tap…in the kitchen…
It’s been a good week.